Foot Polish

The April 2008 issue of Spa Magazine had an interesting recipe for a foot
Polish.

Ingredients
1 cup Dead Sea or Epsom salts
Juice of 1 lemon
1/2 cup jojoba oil
3 drops essential oil of your choice

Directions
Crush salts using a mortar and pestle
Mix lemon juice & oils together in a small dish
Add wet ingredients to salt mixture in a large bowl
With your hands, apply the scrub to feet and ankles using firm pressure on
Rough places, such as heels, and a light touch on sensitive spots like the
Soles.

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The 3 R's Principle

Here's an introduction of The 3 R's Principle:

* Reduce - Reduce the amount of rubbish (trash) you create.
* Reuse - Reuse items such as carrier bags, lunch boxes etc.
* Recycle - Go to your local recycling site.

Reducing waste saves both materials and energy, and removes the need and expense of disposal. You can reduce waste by not buying disposable items, choosing items with less packaging, refusing unnecessary shopping bags, and stopping junk mail.

Reusing reduces the need to buy new items which saves resources.

Recycling saves valuable raw materials. Check your local area for recycling programs and locations around town for drop-off of recyclable materials such as plastics, newspapers and cardboard.

Anyone who eats, wears clothes or reads, can offer stuff that would otherwise end up in the landfill, or else can be processed for recycling. Remember, the last of the 3 R's is reuse ;)

We have had WANTED and/or OFFERs for the following items listed on Freecycle groups. Please think before throwing out something. Maybe offering it on the list is a last chance to save it before it ends up in the landfill:

- Old holey socks/ mismatched socks (used to make pillows for the humane society)
- Old panty hose with runs in them - crafts
- Material in large or small pieces - crafts/ sewing projects
- Plastic yogurt/margarine and larger ice cream or dog bone containers
- Glass jars from store bought pickles
- Film Canisters - great for quarters to go to the laundry mat and to hold beads and other small craft stuff-also great for fine motor skills-teachers use these in special education classrooms quite often
- Old calendars/ catalogues - for pictures for use by preschoolers to practice their cutting abilities on or classroom projects
- Grocery bags - for pet rescue/ pet obedience school and portable poop scoops! Also for those who still have diaper babies running around-perfect for those stinky diapers!
- Used bubble envelopes, packing popcorn, frozen food boxes and larger moving boxes - for those who are pen pals or who do shipping
- Magazines and books-military personnel overseas would love these!
- Broken dishes/ pottery, etc. to be used in mosaics
- Used mismatched cutlery - for art and for work lunch rooms, shelters, drop ins
- Plastic pop bottles or Styrofoam take out containers - for winter sowing of seeds and containers for growing-also great for mailers-we've used soda bottles and mailed surprise gifts to neices and nephews during the holiday seasons
- Used plastic pots/Styrofoam flats used for plants
- The plastic off a new mattress
- Take out soy sauce, ketchup packets, etc.- great for school lunches and picnics
- Moving boxes and packing paper (neighborhood favorite)
- Sod/ rocks / plants/ seeds/ bricks
- Landscape material/ renovation leftovers
- Broken appliances that people can either fix themselves or can salvage the scrap metal from
- Plastic containers from laundry and dishwashing detergents
- Old towels, blankets and bedding for use in animal shelters

All these items can be salvaged and reused for one thing or another. Let's all pitch in and save the landfills from unnecessary wasted space for items that can be utilized for alternate uses they were intended for. Everyone has something to offer!

Yoga site...

YogaVideo

What a cool site! Fresh yoga every day! Check out this cool finding of mine-yogatoday.com
I love it!

Awakening

So I've been thinking a lot about Buddhism lately.
I really want to try to meditate more. I've really been wanting to go slowly the way of enlightenment. I want to silence the chatter in my life. I want to simplify my being-my spirit self.
I'm trying to purify my mind and my body and in doing this, I can purify my spirit. But how?
I can watch less television. Find better things to do with my time.
What is it about television that sucks you in? I get so sucked in by the reality shows. I somehow get a kick out of people making asses out of themselves.
Also, I need to watch my actions with others. It's important for me to control my impulses to just tell strangers that the smell or that they annoy the shit out of me. I should probably control that. I don't know why I just don't have any control at all over my feelings sometimes. I need to just cool it. Control my emotions and feelings towards others.
Also no more gossip. I hate that. And I love it. Ugh.
I'm working on it. I just want to be a good wife, and a good mother. I want to be the mother I wanted to have. I know that my ideal was a perfect one, but I want to at least say that I'm actively striving for it.
That's all. It's hard, but I'm going to do it. I will. Perhaps one day I can share my beliefs with my parents.
Or perhaps not....

Karma and Healing...

So I've been on a healing journey lately, and I've been reading about Karma.
Just thought I'd share some of my findings.
Healing is an easy thing when you are ready. Only you will know when you're ready to let go of the past. The only thing you have to do, is be totally willing to let it go. Be willing to just be your truth, and be serenity. Be the earth, and air, that is stable and yet flows.
Healing. It's hard to do, but when it's time, you will know. When you are ready, you will know.
This year, I decided I'm going to heal and let go of all the shit. All the crap from my life, I'm going to let it go. So, I created a blessing ritual, and my MIL helped me, along with my DH.
I smudged myself, and in a formal ceremony, let go of the past. Now I'm not saying that's what you have to do, but it worked for me. I also am working at letting go every day. It's hard, but it's happening.
Here's the link:
http://buddhism.kalachakranet.org/karma.html

Winter Solstice (Yule) Ritual

Tools:
In addition to your usual altar tools, you will need:

• A Green Altar Cloth
  
• A Cauldron w/Lid or Cover Plate
  
• Holly Sprig Wreath
  
• Mistletoe Sprig Wreath
  
• 12 Low Vibration Stones (flat oval river rock work well)
  
• 1 Black Votive Candle, 1 Green 12" Taper Candle, 1 White 12" Taper Candle, 1 Gold (12hr) Pillar Candle
  
• Pine Incense
  
• Bowl of Water w/ Pine Sprig in it
  
• Plate of Sand
  
• Athame
  
• Other Personal Items of choice

Preparation:
This ritual showed be performed right after sunset. About an hour before, sweep area moving in a deosil manner. Yule symbols such as Poinsettias, Pine Cones, and even a decorated Yule Log nearby (if too big for altar) adds to the ambiance. Place the proper candles and symbols at the four cardinal directions. Place the gold God pillar candle at right top of altar. Place the white Goddess taper candle at the top left. Place your Pentacle (or a plate with a Pentagram drawn on it) in the center of the altar. Place your Cauldron to the right of the altar, with the black votive candle, Holly sprig wreath around it , inside. Cover cauldron with lid or cover plate. Place the green taper candle and mistletoe wreath where they will be behind you at the beginning of the ritual. Outline your circle perimeter with 11 of the low vibration stones (save 12th to close circle when you enter. Place the rest of your tools and props according to personal preference. Take a shower or bath for purity. Sit quietly for a period to ground and center. When ready put on some soothing music associated with the Sabbat and your ritual. Enter the standing stone circle and close with 12th stone.

Cast circle by envisioning flames of Yule colors red, green, and gold coming up between the stones. When all become a continuous line, step up to the altar and begin:

"From the darkness is born the light, From void, fulfillment emerges... The darkest night of the year's at the threshold, Open now the door, and honor the darkness."

Take the lid/plate off the cauldron and light the black votive candle inside. Step back from the cauldron and give silent honor to the Holly King, the ruler of the dark half of the year. Call quarters, start by lighting yellow candle in the East:

"Powers of Air, step forth from the darkness, Enter my circle , as dark gives 'way to light. Bring along with you the essence of pine trees, Remind me of Springtime As I face Solstice Night."

Light the pine incense and place on Pentacle/Center Plate. Light the red candle in the South:

"Powers of Fire, step forth from the darkness, Enter my circle, as dark gives 'way to light, Bring along with you the first glint of tomorrow, Remind me of Summer As I face Solstice Night."

Pick up the Athame and brandish it in the flame of the candle to reflect the light. Place on the Pentacle/Center Plate. Light the blue candle in the West:

"Powers of Water, step forth from the darkness, Enter my circle, as dark gives 'way to light, Bring along with you bittersweet memories Remind me of Autumn As I face Solstice Night."

Pick up the bowl of water, sprinkle water with pine sprig in Pentacle/Center Plate. Light brown candle in the North:

"Powers of Earth, step forth from the darkness, Enter my circle, as dark gives 'way to light, Bring along with you the land that now slumbers, Remind me of Winter And this cold Solstice Night."

Pick up the plate of sand, sprinkle sand in a line around the other symbols. Step back from the alter for a moment and contemplate the seasons of the past year, and how their lessons have brought you to where you are today. When ready, begin again:

"Dark my surroundings, and cold be this night But Thy labor, Blessed Mother Has reborn the Sacred Light... The Child Divine, The most honored Sun Shall return with the sunrise Again, Two will be One."

Remove the Holly wreath from around the black votive candle. With your right hand, present it to the four elements in a deosil manner. Finally, in a clockwise motion, place it behind you, to signify the death, "passing", of the Holly King. Turn back to the altar. Then with your left hand, reach behind you, and in a clockwise motion bring forward the Mistletoe wreath and the green candle. Present them to the elements, slide the wreath over the green candle and place the candle in its holder in the cauldron. Light the green candle with the black votive candle:

"Hark! Behold the Rebirth of the King of the Woodlands! Behold the Oak King, strong and vital he rises!" Snuff the black votive candle and with your right hand, place it behind you in a clockwise motion. Turn back to the cauldron, close your eyes, and silently honor the Oak King. Begin again: "Awake now Thy Mother, Thy Lover, Thy Lady - Awake now Thy Goddess of Life, Death, Rebirth."

Take the green candle out of the cauldron and light the white Goddess candle on the altar. Replace the green candle in the cauldron. Take the white Goddess candle with both hands and hold out at arm's length over the cauldron:

"Awaken, my Lady, look upon Thyne Divine Child, His rebirth while You slumbered Was subtle and silent. The Stag King, the Green Man, Lord of Fertility, He awaits Thy wakening Gentle and benevolent"

Place the white Goddess candle back in its holder at the left top of altar. Step back and assume the Goddess position. In a bold voice:

"All hail the Oak King, His rebirth; a promise All hail the Divine Child, Giver of Life All hail the Blessed Sun, reborn to the Mother For he retakes His throne at the end of Solstice Night!"

Now is the time for meditation and any spellworkings. Spellworkings associated with Yule include those for peace, harmony, love, and happiness. Next celebrate with the Cakes and Ale (Fruitcake* and Spiced Cider *) ceremony, saving some for the wee Folkes, outside. Thank the Goddess and snuff Her candle. Thank and release the elements:

"Carry sweet tidings, 'round the world and beyond, I charge thee as messengers Earth, Water, Fire, and Air Let all rejoice loudly in the Oak King's return Teach all that you meet, with the glad tidings you bear."

Snuff each Quarter candle in a widdershins manner. Step back and face the cauldron and the green candle still burning bright.

"Before my circle, tonight, I close Blessings I ask for this house and my kin Tomorrow at daybreak, when I arise A special flame I will carry, within... And a gold candle upon my altar I'll light Adding my will to the Sun King's intent To climb aloft in the vaulted skies And for strength back to me; three times, strength I've sent."

Snuff the green candle. Take the Mistletoe wreath and place it on the other symbols on the Pentacle/Center Plate. Release the circle. Clean up, leaving the gold God pillar candle in center front to light upon rising in the morning. You are done.

http://www.wicca.com/celtic/akasha/yulerit.htm --Adapted by Akasha Ap Emrys to share with all her friends and those of like mind--

Themes:
the birth of the sun, battle between Oak and Holly Kings, longest night of the year

Sacred To:
Sun God/desses, Holly & Oak Kings, the sacred son in any form

Key Activities:
* Make the circle with evergreen boughs;
outdoors, sweep the snow out to the edges
and lay the brooms on the circular snowbank.
* Burn the Yule Log
* Make tree ornaments: animals, plants,
moons, sun, stars (children can make 'snow
flakes' and decorate with glitter)
* Decorate a "World Tree" indoors, or a living
one outdoors
* Perform a mystery play about the birth of the
Sun. Sing pagan carols.
* Exchange blessing gifts
* Enjoy a visit from Mother Berchta with her
bag of gifts (see below)
* Tell the story of Stonehenge as an
astronomical observatory.
* Enact the battle between the Oak & Holly
Kings (Oak wins)
* Play Find the Sun game (people seated in a circle pass a foil 'sun' ball, trying to hide it from a sole person outside the circle; when he spies it he trades places with the one holding it)
* Appoint (or draw lots) a "Lord of Misrule" to
preside over the festivities.

*Ritual Craft by Amber K and Azrael Arynn K

Berchta, Mistress of Destiny

Submitted by: swampy http://www.dutchie.org/Tracy/goddess/berchta.html

"Hallowed Woman of the Earth
We give this gift to you
Frau Holda, riding forth this night,
Look kindly on our work,
Berchta, beldame of the wheel,
Spin us good wyrd tonight
O Mighty Mother of us all
Pray, fill our house with joy!"

Berchta (also called Perchta) is a Teutonic Goddess whose worship originated in the southern part of Germany in what is now the German state of Bavaria. Berchta has been called by names in other parts of Europe (some scholars feel that these are Berchta herself, others feel that they are similar goddesses that are at least are closely related to Berchta): Holde (`merciful'), Holla, Holda, Huldra, Frau Holle, Mother Holle, Perht, Berta (`Bright'), Queen of the Estantigua (Spain), and Frau Freke (a name connected to Frig). Berchta's name is connected with words meaning "bright, luminous or glorious."

Berchta, is the "White Lady" who spins destiny. In the Teutonic rendering of what is considered to be 'Norse' mythology, Berchta is usually said to be the wife of the god Woden (also known as Wodan, Wotan, Oden, or Odin). The name 'Woden' means 'Fury' or 'Frenzy' and He is associated with otherworldly beings and flying at night with horned animals. Woden is considered to be the Master of the Wild Hunt and Berchta is its mistress. The Wild Hunt, full of ghosts, trolls, and other outdwellers, occurs during the days immediately following the Winter Solstice. In some of the Old Germanic sagas, Berchta is seen in the forests and winter snow with 24 spotted hounds, and She leads the 'Wights' (Spirits) through the winter time season back unto the resting places in the spring.

Berchta is described as an old woman with long teeth and tangled hair (and sometimes depicted with a long iron nose and one large foot), and other times she is described as a beautiful dark haired woman dressed and crowned in white! Berchta is shown travelling either in a wagon or bearing a plough and attended by the spirits of unborn children. Sometimes She is shown flying through the air accompanied by a goose, which always flies in front of Her (making Berchta the original Mother Goose). Berchta is mainly associated with the winter season and She is also believed to be the cause of many natural phenomena. Snow is caused by Her shaking Her feather bed, and fog was the smoke from Her fire.

Berchta is a Mother Goddess and a fertility goddess who rewards the good, but also punishes the lazy and cruel. Many tales are told of Berchta to frighten children into behaving when they are unmanageable. Berchta is said to come at night and drag the child off in a sack or stamp on it with Her foot. If the child is especially naughty She might cut open its stomach and fill it with chopped straw and dirt. Berchta's dark side is evident in Her role in the witches' ride, an equivalent of the Wild Hunt.

'Mothers Night' is a festival held the night before the Solstice (ca. Dec. 20) that is sacred to Berchta and other Mother Goddesses. Lore says that on this night no spinning is to be done, for this activity is holy to Berchta. In fact, Berchta often comes to inspect the spindles. She rewards diligent spinners by making their work easier; She punishes lazy spinners by soiling or fraying their yarn. It is traditional to eat a simple meal of fish and porridge on Mothers Night, for these foods are holy to the Mother Goddesses.

Berchta descends on the nights between December 22 and January 6 and travels the countryside in Her wagon, unrecognized, bestowing gifts to those who have been generous and punishing those who have been greedy or lazy. Variations have Her flying on Her broom accompanied by the spirits of dead children, elves and faeries. But in all the tales She goes up and down chimney's to bring gifts to the children in Her worshipped households.

The tradition of honoring Berchta may be the clearest survival of a cult connected to a Teutonic deity. While the worship of other gods has been suppressed into silence for so many centuries Berchta's legends have adapted from age to age. Christianity left its mark on Berchta's image, in many post-Christian tales Berchta is no longer a Goddess but rather an ugly old woman and patron of witches. This is in keeping with the concept that as a heathen goddess Berchta is a demon and the transformation from goddess into demon witch wife is clear. As the 'witch queen' of the time after Christianity, it was said that Berchta claims the souls of unbaptised children for the old gods, plus it was said that Berchta also punishes women who work over the Christmas period, on Sundays or on saints' days in a like manner. This gives us the rather ironic picture of a Pagan goddess protecting a Christian tradition, but it clearly shows how old legends can adapt to new ideas if given the chance.

Berchta's sacred color is black; Her herbs are Storax and Myrrh; Her animals are the wolf, the goose and the bear; Her stones are onyx, jet, obsidian, black agate, and lead; Her trees are beech, elm, ivy, linden, juniper, mullein, blackthorn, willow, yew, and elder; Her day of the week is Saturday; and her runes are isa, hagalaz, and ehwo

Yule Lore (December 21st)

Yule Lore (December 21st)

Yule, (pronounced EWE-elle) is when the dark half of the year relinquishes to the light half. Starting the next morning at sunrise, the sun climbs just a little higher and stays a little longer in the sky each day.

Also refered to as the Winter Solstice, it is the longest night of the year (shortest day). For thousands of years humans have honored this day as the mark to the winter relenquishing its hold on the land....a sign spring is on its way. Ironically, humans can't witness the exact winter solstice with the naked eye, the change in the lengthening of daylight is most noticable within a few days post the actual solstice....which falls on Christmas day! As the sun is becoming a stronger influence on our lives (as the days get longer) Yule is a time of celebrating the Gods rebirth (since the sun is often thought of as the Gods solar aspect). So at Yule, the God is the Goddess' (mother nature) son, re-born in His solar aspect. (as the Sabbats celebrate the cycle of life - birth, aging, death, re-birth - this High Holy Day is designated to celebrate the birth).

Deities of Yule are all Newborn Gods, Sun Gods, Mother Goddesses, and Triple Goddesses. The best known would be the Dagda, and Brighid, the daughter of the Dagda. Brighid taught the smiths the arts of fire tending and the secrets of metal work. Brighid's flame, like the flame of the new light, pierces the darkness of the spirit and mind, while the Dagda's cauldron assures that Nature will always provide for all the children.

Much celebration was to be had as the ancestors awaited the rebirth of the Oak King, the Sun King, the Giver of Life that warmed the frozen Earth and made her to bear forth from seeds protected through the fall and winter in her womb. Bonfires were lit in the fields, and crops and trees were "was sailed" with toasts of spiced cider. The Oak King and Holly King are known as light and dark twins and are celebrated in different aspects through most Sabbats. We re-inact their battles in our circles at the solstices (Litha and Yule) to symbolize not the king's death but the giving up of rulership pf the year to his brother, his "other" self, for the needs and tasks of each half of the year are different. Wiccans believe the Goddess (in her maiden aspect takes the loser away to heal him so he will be strong enough to win the battle at the next solstice). The famous tale of Gwain and the Green Knight is an Arthurian version of the Oak and Holly King battle - Gwain if Oak and the Green Knight is Holly. In otehr stories Robin Hood is associated with a bird, whose red breast symbolizes the sun - with the smoke from the Yule Log Robin rushes up the chimney, and re-appears as Belin (little-known brother of Bran) whom the Sheriff recognizes as the Holly King and hangs. Therefore, some believe the Holly Kins is the orgin of Santa Clause. (1)

In ancient times, children were escorted from house to house with gifts of clove spiked apples and oranges which were laid in baskets of evergreen boughs and wheat stalks dusted with flour. The apples and oranges represented the sun, the boughs were symbolic of immortality, the wheat stalks portrayed the harvest, and the flour was accomplishment of triumph, light, and life. Holly, mistletoe, and ivy not only decorated the outside, but also the inside of homes. It was to extend invitation to Nature Sprites to come and join the celebration. A sprig of Holly was kept near the door all year long as a constant invitation for good fortune to pay visit to the residents.

The ceremonial Yule log was the highlight of the festival. In accordance to tradition, the log must either have been harvested from the householder's land, or given as a gift... it must never have been bought. Once dragged into the house and placed in the fireplace it was decorated in seasonal greenery, doused with cider or ale, and dusted with flour before set ablaze be a piece of last years log, (held onto for just this purpose). The log would burn throughout the night, then smolder for 12 days after before being ceremonially put out. Ash is the traditional wood of the Yule log. It is the sacred world tree of the Teutons, known as Yggdrasil. An herb of the Sun, Ash brings light into the hearth at the Solstice.

A different type of Yule log, and perhaps one more suitable for modern practitioners would be the type that is used as a base to hold three candles. Find a smaller branch of oak or pine, and flatten one side so it sets upright. Drill three holes in the top side to hold red, green, and white (season), green, gold, and black (the Sun God), or white, red, and black (the Great Goddess). Continue to decorate with greenery, red and gold bows, rosebuds, cloves, and dust with flour.

Symbolism of Yule:
Rebirth of the Sun, The longest night of the year, The Winter Solstice, Introspect, Planning for the Future.

Symbols of Yule:
Yule log, or small Yule log with 3 candles, evergreen boughs or wreaths, holly, mistletoe hung in doorways, gold pillar candles, baskets of clove studded fruit, a simmering pot of wassail, poinsettias, christmas cactus.

Herbs of Yule:
Bayberry, blessed thistle, evergreen, frankincense holly, laurel, mistletoe, oak, pine, sage, yellow cedar.

Foods of Yule:
Cookies and caraway cakes soaked in cider, fruits, nuts, pork dishes, turkey, eggnog, ginger tea, spiced cider, wassail, or lamb's wool (ale, sugar, nutmeg, roasted apples).

Incense of Yule:
Pine, cedar, bayberry, cinnamon.

Colors of Yule:
Red, green, gold, white, silver, yellow, orange.

Stones of Yule:
Rubies, bloodstones, garnets, emeralds, diamonds.

Activities of Yule:
Caroling, wassailing the trees, burning the Yule log, decorating the Yule tree, exchanging of presents, kissing under the mistletoe, honoring Kriss Kringle the Germanic Pagan God of Yule

Spellworkings of Yule:
Peace, harmony, love, and increased happiness.

Deities of Yule:
Goddesses-Brighid, Isis, Demeter, Gaea, Diana, The Great Mother. Gods-Apollo, Ra, Odin, Lugh, The Oak King, The Horned One, The Green Man, The Divine Child, Mabon.

(1) Celebrating the Seasons of Life: Samhain to Ostara by Ashleen O'Gaea
(2) http://www.wicca.com/celtic/akasha/yule.htm
--Adapted by Akasha Ap Emrys For all her friends and those of like mind--

Putting the past behind me

I feel a bit sad today. Feeling better than I did last night, but still, sad. I have a few credit card bills, and my unemployment ran out. Just wonderful. Can someone please tell the government that SAHMs work too?

The key is to learn from my mistakes. I have to learn that I don’t need to spend in order to feel good. But the thing is, I get so lonely. I try to reach out to people, and people don’t give me the time of day. I throw parties, and invite everyone I know, and no one shows. It’s so depressing. I want a deep friendship with someone who connects with me spiritually, you know? Not just these vain friendships with women who can afford to be SAHMs, and have money to waste here and there.

And my back is killing me from carrying my girl all day long. I’m depressed. And fat. I don’t need things to make me feel good, I need to feel good for myself. But it’s not easy! Really, it is so hard. I wish I could just call up a girl friend and tell her all about it. But I can’t. My mother is a nut job too, so there goes that one. Even if she wasn’t, she’s a Bible thumper to the core. I get so down sometimes I just want to run away. But I couldn’t. I love my daughter too much. And my husband.

I have to just put the past behind me, and free myself from it. It’s not my consequence anymore. Furthermore, there is nothing wrong with not feeling good once in a while. There is so much pressure to not be, or to be a certain way. We need to allow ourselves to feel once in a while. It’s okay to be down. So longs we at least try to learn from it.

I’m going to take a ritual bath tonite-one to help me heal. Color the water blue for healing, burn some incense, and add some lavender to the water to aid in depression. Lite a candle, and bingo. Instant spa relaxation.

I’m feeling better already…

Rejection from a so called friend

It just pisses me off when I’m a friend to someone and they don’t bother returning my phone calls. What the fuck si wrong with people nowadays? Does everyone in the world have to be a lame ass mother fucker? What the hell? I get so angry about it, I just want to spit nails. I’m a good person. I’m a good friend. I may be truthful and blunt; but I’m a good friend. I’m a good person.

So why the hell do people not return my calls? I’m angry at a particular person at the moment, for not returning my calls, for thinking she is better then mesimply because she wastes all her money on organic food. Well, thanks but given the choice between electricity and organic food, I would rather have electricity. Thanks. I understand that it’s important. I understand that we should be eating as much organic as possible. But I can’t fucking afford it. Alright?

I met this person thru her live in boyfriend, who I happen to know. She is a nice girl, but so extreme. She’s so extreme in her way of thinking that she makes you feel badly for the way you live your life in comparison to hers. She points out what you are doing wrong, she tells you what you could be doing better. She acts proud and high on herself for being the way that she is. So I’m not a vegetarian. So I don’t eat all organic food. Does that make me less of a person? In terms of living in harmony with the environment, does doing these things and bragging about them, and acting holier then thou about it, does it make her more in harmony with the earth? No. it does not. In fact, yes. Animals are living things. So are plants. So are trees, and flowers and all that grows. It doesn’t mean that I’m not going to eat at all so as to not hurt any living thing. I eat healthy. But I believe in the passion that comes from the love of making a good hearty meal for my family. I love to cook. Cooking is passion. Food is love. And I don’t put restrictions on love. Or passion. I just know when to say when.

When it comes down to it, I am hurt. I am hurt that she doesn’t return my calls, I am hurt that she thinks herself better then me. I am bothered and angry that she thinks that way. I am hurt and angry because I know that although I am blunt, I am kind. I am worth having as a friend. It makes me feel rejected, which angers me. I shouldn’t feel this way. Hurt and angry. It’s her loss, right? But I’m so trying to make friendships which uplift me and make me feel more positive. I want friendships with people who are okay with my spirituality, and who share my beliefs; people who are creative and artistic like me; people who inspire me. Some times there are people who need you, and that’s great. It’s nice to be needed. But sometimes I need to give back to myself; to restore myself.

Perhaps I feel badly for calling her and leaving her a message stating that I have her book that she intrusively gave me to borrow. I didn’t want it, she just got that holier than thou attitude and assumed I needed it. It’s called “giving the love that heals”. It’s a parenting book. Thanks . But no thanks. First of all, I know how love. I don’t need a book to teach me that. I also do not need someone to assume things of me, when I am opening myself up to you. I tell her things, and she reccomeneds books to me. I don’t need some silly book to teach me what I already know. I give love to my daughter. She’s my guru. She teaches me what it is to be a real person. She teaches me what it is to be alive. To love. To live. No book can teach you that. No book can tell you how to be a good parent. Not really. Your intuition tells you. You can waken the wisdom inside you. That is what teaches you. It alone can tell you what your child needs. Not a book. No book in the world is substitute for your third eye, for the wisdom within.

So I suppose that I’ll forget about her. She’s not worth me feeling negatively about it. I just want a friend who shares my interests. For now I’ll be friends with myself.

Halloween thoughts…

Man, Halloween rocked this year! I had so much fun. I went dressed up as a witch, and my little one dressed up as a penguin. She was so cute! My hubby went as a dead person. We went to the parade that they hold here. It was so cool! They close down the streets and the firefighters and cops parade down the streets playing band music and handing out candy all dressed up. There was even a headless horseman!

It just blows that I missed out on Halloween fun just because of my bible thumper parents. Why do people feel like they have to feel like they have to impose their beliefs on their children, simply because (and you know this) they are nuts? Honestly, their all a bunch of nut jobs. Xtians, and health nuts that don't let their kids go trick or treating because god forbid their kids eat any candy. Since when is Halloween an evil holiday?

And then xtians have this ridiculous belief that witches pray against xtians on Halloween and on dates that are 9/9/9 or 6/6/6….oh brother. What a bunch of weirdos.